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Give me some good ol basic emotion and situation any day. You fall, you get hurt and you cry. You meet someone, you feel happy, you smile. You don't like something you say it out, it's over.
I don't know what thats like anymore. I look for it, strive for it, yet i know that i don't work that way anymore, and whats worse, is that i don't think people are that way either. We lie to sound more believable! and we smile and say how nice to see you, when all we want to say is f@#k off and die! I'm just so sick of not knowing what i'm saying or supposed to be saying anymore!
have you ever been in a situation where you know that nothing you do or say or feel will fix it? that feeling that you've lost something and it'll never come back. and when everything you say just means something else entirely to that other person.
it's the worst feeling in the world when you can't be honest to the people you want to be true to. and worse still when you are being honest, but the person doesnt believe a word of what youre saying. add to that the general feeling that nothing can be fixed and you have yourself a nice lethal cocktail that leaves you drunk and stupid and all in all, a little dead inside.
i suppose its human nature that time drains away all your feelings except for the complex stuff. kind of like that thick line of coffee left at the bottom of the filter- potent, and strong and will it'll wake you up! i'm awake and very aware that we all live like this day in and day out, we just change the filter, fill our coffee and put on a fresh pot knowing full well that the filter's gonna fill up again.
not that we all lie all the time, but on a daily basis we choose the level of honesty we wish to maintain with everyone we talk to. it's about convenience really - you talk about the things you wish to talk about. the second you have to explain something, it becomes painful...and who has time for that right?
i actually don't know what i'm getting at here, i know that everything is fine as it is and honestly, i don't think i want more at all. but i just don't want to care about what is being said and why it is being said anymore.
guess i just like my pure apple juice to just be apple juice.
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but that's fine right? and some conversations are just superfluous. some details too. besides our relationship with the person also dictates what we consider is relevant for them to know and what not. just because you're in love with someone doesn't mean you MUST share every minute of your lives. they're prolly in love with you coz they're unaware of every minute of your life. would he love me still if he heard me fart?..............
>hed hobo: hahahahaha that last lines just about sums it up. Also, i was pretty lost when i was writing the post so i'm happy cos your comment actually kinda helps me understand what i wrote! bottom line, we talk of what we want to and thats how it'll stay. My rant was actually a bit reactionary to a happening but by the end i realised that it went beyond any instance.
also makes me wonder about a new measure for true love - the fart analysis!
I know what you mean! Real people, real conversations, real emotions and real truths! Hmmm... yes I guess u're right.. we choose our levels of honesty depending on the convenience...
And yeah, totally understand the situation where nothing you say or feel can make it ok, and it leaves you feeling utterly helpless, and a little empty inside..
Bull Shaiteeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
Well if u want Apple Juice - You get Apple Juice!!
Get Drunkkkkkkkkkk and say it Aloud!!
U know why I fall into a hole all the freakkkkkiiin time NOW!!
HaHa;)!!
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